Update

It’s been a few weeks since I last posted so this is going to be a pretty informal post to update you on what’s been going on. Life has been pretty weird lately. I’m having a hard time describing how I’ve been feeling exactly. Neutral? Dull? Numb? I guess just a little less vibrant than I would like to be. I feel like life is moving so fast and the day seems to go by in the blink of an eye, and I look at what I’ve accomplished in the past week and its the bare minimum. Maybe not even the bare minimum because I’m still missing 3 assignments, I haven’t worked out in a few days and I basically just forgot about all of my responsibilities.

This is the first moment in a while that I’ve felt connected to what’s going on around me. It’s a little past 7 pm and I’m sitting on my porch after a pretty heavy rainfall, typing this. Throughout quarantine I have looked to nature to find peace and comfort and this past week I’ve forgotten about how much joy the sound of it all brings me. Does that mean I’ll jump right into those missing assignments when I log off of this? I don’t know, I would hope so. But for now what I do know is that things are starting to look up.

Motivation is a weird thing, it comes in waves. One second you have it and you’re like “Okay I can do this” and then you get your books together, and you sit down at the table and you’re like “maybe I’ll just do it later”. And then that later turns into tomorrow and tomorrow turns into next week. I don’t know about you but I am the queen of procrastination. And once I skip one assignment, I get stuck in that rut that’s practically impossible to come out of. Usually I’m the one on here giving advice on fashion and life but lately I’ve been asking for a lot of advice from others. You don’t need to know it all, all of the time and it’s okay to have a rough day or even a rough week. It’s not the setback that defines you, it’s how you come back from it.

-Alexa